i really have so little time for blogging nowadays. even when i do blog, its like so brief and boring. no time to make it sounds more interesting or exciting even though it is, like my previous sensual dancing post.

life has been not bad for me. been busy with work, colleagues, friends and family. but i don't why do i feel suddenly if i'm doing the right stuffs.

sometimes i wonder what's the purpose in my life. what do i hope to achieve. what i want to do. and where. but no answer came up. i seem to be just drifting along with my life. with no main goal in sight or in mind.

sure i'm busy. so busy. but what am i so busy for ultimately?

once in a while, i will think "hey, maybe that's what i want to be" but a little time later, i think "hmmm, then again, maybe not."

when i was younger, really young, like any other kid, i have my own aspirations and ambitions. there, those common ones like doctor, lawyer, teacher, policewoman, businesswoman and the list goes on.

but now, nothing. nothing to aspire to be or to do. nothing to aim to be or to do.

when did life take such a turn? why do i grow up to want to be nothing? i feel lost. *sighs*

maybe its just that its nearing my quarter-century of age and i look back and feel like i've achieve nothing in my life. is this what they call the mid-life crisis? ok la, maybe quarter-life crisis. quarter-life identity crisis...